I wish I could drain out his half of blood in me,but i'd still have his face.

hmm so latley things have been postive and negative.
my dad's alcohol problem has been getting progressivley worse.
not once in my life has someone looked me straight in the eyes and sincerly say "fuck you"
it was heartbreaking, but i know it was alcohol and not him. I hate being negative, but i guess sometimes we have to let it out.

i know things will get better eventually.

"But Atleast I Get To Sing Your Name, and I Think That's Pretty Cool"

hahah I just watched Role Models with my brother and Haggard. Pretty good movie, and surprisingly you can learn a lot from it. I learned that you have to make time to get the things done that need to be taken care of. That sometimes the things we feel we need, we really dont. I FINALLY got my permit, and within 30 days, I can get my license. I drove on the freeway for the first time today, I was scared, but it got easy quick. Don't EVER be in my position. Take drivers training, and save money for a car. You will be much happier. Believe me. We started a new trimester, and I'm not sure how I feel about my classes. I really like Shaping Your Future, inspirational things keep me interested. I am sure they will get better. I really get tired of hearing the same conversations in school, I mean really? you drank? you took what pills? It's become so accepted in this town, that noone cares. Your cool story about the weekend is not even cool anymore. There will come a point in these peoples lives where I hope they will just get away from bullshit. As I've been told, I am just a person, I can't change a whole society. I wish you luck in trying to keep your shit together.

enough negative stuff. I downloaded a journey cd today haha, isnt that great? Im super excited for it.

I feel like I have made amends with a lot of stuff in life latley, and it feels good. I no longer feel the way I did in the past about certain things. I don't know how I exactly overcame things, but it just happened. I love everybody, no matter what has happened. we have to be warm-hearted.

Alright.
Take it easy friends.
-Al

Headaches and Long Day's

So I've been thinking a lot latley. I am really not that good in school haha. I've learned to realize that although I dont do that great in school, I have many other qualities that make up for it. I have big heart, and thats all I could ever really ask of myself. I will excell in anything I set my heart too. Music is my biggest goal in life, whether it be playing in a band, recording bands, scouting. ANYTHING with music.

A lot of people are changing, change can be hard, but its part of life. I wish understood a lot of people sometimes. I guess I was constructed to feel differently on a lot of topics.

I want another tattoo really bad. A music related one.

This was a pretty lame post.
I will post again soon.
-Alecks.

"Do you belong in your own skin? Just wondering"

Alright so I went to see Gran Torino for the second time today, and I have to say, it's the most influental movie I have ever watched. I am very dissapointed that Clint Eastwood didn't get nominated for anything at the oscars, but that's besides the point. The movie taught me a lot about life in general (haha everything I write about is shitty life lessons I find important) I learned that you have to make amends with your past before it becomes too late. We all go through terrible things in life, and sometimes you just have to let the burdens go. Start fresh. I also learned that its very important to make time to visit family. I've learned through many people that it's not until after someone is gone that you truley realize how much you wish you knew them. Well do that now, don't waste time.

I dont know, I just thought it was a really good movie, I suggest you go and see it.

Thats all I've got for now.
I still don't think anyone has read these. oh well.

take it easy,
Alecks.

Doctor, Doctor.

After school today my mom and me ran to Beaumont hospital in Royal Oak to meet my dad and grandma for my grandpa's surgery. It was a long procedure, but when it was finished he seemed to be doing pretty well. I spent the day sitting with him as he came out of surgery, and I couldn't help but admire the strongness he portrayed. I really respected and learned from that. You can really learn a lot of lessons by just watching people. I saw family's coming together and giving each other support in the worse situations possible.

The man next to my grandpa also just came out of surgery, except he was not doing well. I heard the family talking and saying things like "They say he only has a little longer to live" and things like that, and of course this was very sad. I got to thinking, if I we're to be the one lying on that bed, would I pass away knowing I was the best I could be? Did I accomplish everything I set out too? Then I thought, I hope someday when I am in a situation like this, that my family will be there by my side. Going to see a family member in need should NEVER be a task or chore. It should be a want out of someone's heart. I would sit there for months if it's what took for my grandpa to get better. It's just how I am.

I hope if you haven't already in life, realize that there is someone who needs you way more than you think. Don't hesitate, because we never have enough time. It certainly won't wait around for you. Go into every situation warm-heartedly and remember that we don't know where an individual goes home at night, they might need more help than you think.

well, I'm off to sleep. Then picking my grandpa up with my dad at 9am.
take it easy friends,
Alecks.

I wonder if anyone has even read these yet. haha.

Every Night's Another Story.

So I've decided to blog becuase I have a mind filled with things that I don't always get to share with people. I don't expect many kids to even take the time to read it, but if you do, I hope you find something in it that you can relate too. Afterall, we all live in the same world and expirience many of the same things.

Today had many up's and down's.

My grandpa will be going into surgery tomorrow to unfuse some vertebrae in his neck, I know that everything is going to be okay, but I decided last week that no matter what, I was going to be there for him throughout the surgery. Have you ever expirienced a moment when you could just tell someone needed you? When my grandpa hugged me a few days ago, I could just sense that he wanted me to be there. Me and my grandpa have never really been close, and probably for no particular reason. I hope you all take the time to visit your grandparents, I am a true believer that they really enjoy the company.

I found out that my great uncle Bob passed away two days ago. I've met him on a few occasions and we didnt really know each other, but death is always sad.

I've been doing workout's five day's a week and today was by far the most tiring hahaha. It will all be worth it when the results start showing. I guess I just decided that I am going to have to be in decent shape when I'm older, so why not start now?

I've been listening to The Early November all day, I really enjoy their songs. I kind of expirienced a little dry spell with music recently. I kind of just got bored with everything out there, I am really glad I'm back to my normal ways.

I have two test's tomorrow, I am hoping to atleast pass these ones, haha.
I also cleaned my room to the point where it is spotless today, it feels good when you sit back and feel that you have accomplished something.

The point of all of this is, when you are having the worst day of your life, try to do something to make the best of it. In this case, music is my escape in mostley every situation. Always keep in the back of your mind, someone else is probably having a wayyy tougher day than you. I am a huge hypocrit for saying this, but it's totally true.

Take it easy friends.
-alecks